blah i'm in a well..ranting mood..somewhat pissed and tired, and well i just feel like venting..on multiple subject..so just sit back and prepare to disagree with me. it'll be fun for the whole family..
women - hrm..you women are fucked up..along with us men...but you'd think that well after learning from a bunch of shitty relationships i'd like them any less..nope but well they just don't like to return the favor. and well sometimes i don't get you. you'll sit there and ask for a guy who's such and such things..yet don't even take the f'n time to look around at your surroundings and those 'guys' around you..who more often than not fit your desires..but nope you don't see'm. And also..wtf's up with well dating people back home. I mean fer cryin out loud...you pine for some guy who's what? 2000 miles away..please...you're only fooling yourself into thinking two things 1)it'll last and 2)the guy won't cheat on you. 99% of guys will cheat on their SO if their SO is somewhere else..i mean crap the big thing for guys is the fact that your actually there so if your not there..then..they're missing out on a big part of the whole 'relationship'. i'm sorry but it's prolly already happened..i know you don't wanna admit it but it's prolly true. ok next subject
sex - joy..fun stuff. well i think people put way too much fuckin stock in sex..maybe it's just me but what the fuck you don't hafta have sex..and sex isn't that big a thing. and well peopel who wanna have sex just to say "I had sex!" Uh..please find something else..sex your first time either isn't very fun and hurts (women) or is too short and you think you fucked up on something (guys). And well i don't know about anyone else but my first time was with someone i loved/liked very deeply and if it wasn't with her i doubt i would've enjoyed it as much. Sex isn't everything it's the whipped cream to the cake. The cake being everything else but dating, i.e. seeing the other person, talking to them etc. etc.
guys - yay self critcism of sorts now. well we're fucked up as much as women are but i think we're a little easier to figure out. i mean..90% of guys just want one of three things or any combo therein 1)women 2)drugs and 3)liquor/beer. And well..most seem to go for all three or 2 of 3. Which going from taht you can figure out a guys motive for almost anything they do. so how hard is that? but as with women there are some guys out there who don't fit the 'bill' but oh well i'm not in the mood to deal with'm.
beer, drugs - ok a broadbased category but well it all boils down to the same thing in the end. true it's fun to feel funky when you smoke up..or get drunk. but..if you do it too much it's just not as much fun. and you end up spendin a shit load of money for more and more of the drug just so you can feel better, or hell feel 'normal' so what the fuck is the point of that? i mean i get 'buzzed' every so often offa beer, and i use the term loosely because when i do drink it's maybe 4-5 beers somewhat fast. and that'll be it for the night cause i got the tingly sensation that's sorta funky and things're a bit different but i'm still in control of who i am and what i do. do you really want to lose control over what you do? i mean come on now..you'd go off and do shit to people that you wouldn't mean and well you'd come off most likely like a tard..
fuck gettin more tired..goddamnit..too fuckin late and i'm still in the mood to write..must....continue...
college/roomates - hrm..college is fun i must admit that but it's not like most people think it is..i mean mostly it's just a big ass part..or is one as soon as people are able to party. classes..everyone did like in HS..as much as they hafta so they can scrape by and leave'm the most amount of time to party. and roomates..can be good and bad at the same time. i mean me'n my roomate seth get along..but i dunno they can also be little bitches too. i mean easy shit like buying fucking toilet paper..goddamnit i've bought the last 4 things of TP and yet no one else can..so i hafta use my fuckin tissues until i get a chance to go to the fuckin Ghetto-Fresh.
arg looks like enough for now...goddamn i wish i was buzzed or something i hate this feeling of where i just wanna go out and bust something. and no i'm not like your thinking..i only try to break things that can afford to be broken..i've never hit anyone feeling like this..and usually if i acn't bust anything up i'll go out driving for like 3 hours..just drive..keep goin straight until i feel everything float away from me..but goddamnit i'm trapped in this fuckin city..can't go any-fuckin-where, hafta sit in this fuckin concrete jungle (thank you OpIvy).
you may wonder -if you've actually read this far- how i got to get like this tonight? well this morning i helped smooth out shit between two friends i know overseas and well that sorta got me thinkin on the dating shit..ad then i got bored and read more dland entries..and that got me thinkin about drugs and shit since a lot of people in here seem to be on some sort of drug..and then i ended up talkin to a friend on the phone about her and her long distance relationship, so again i got thinkin about dating and shit like that. and with me once the ball gets rolling it just keeps on going..so blah i'm puttin me thoughts down somewhere..and i guess'm done since everythings fuzzy (damn contacts been in too long) so..e-mail me your thoughts and/or criticsm..
