mostly because before i went out with ian i talked again with sara and got a little more concrete reasoning behind the big breakup and well. once again it seems like the dumbest logic to me [being a silly boy and all that] but she can think what she wants to. and i won't really bad mouth her because there's no need, she didn't rip my heart out and stomp on it like erin. she just kind of disappointed me, because you keep thinking to yourself "she seems like cool girl, and doesn't seem like one of the silly stupid girls" and then this happens. makes me sad because i did like her, but eh. i'll live, it's not the first time it's happened, nor will it probably be the last.

so last night, after the phonecall ian came over and we got drunk, then went up to a local bar that's about 2 minutes from my house and drank some more. saw some people from work and a few others who i think i went to highschool with but wasn't sure. either way it was carthartic to go out and have some fun.

oh and you ds4 people. sorry but i may alienate myself from the group now, or whatevever, but i don't think i'm going to write many entries pandering to you guys because frankly that defeats the purpose of this whole thing. i will talk to you all elsewhere, but in here. still writing about whatever the hell happens in my life.

scud