the main and biggest one, we had a wee little 'family' meeting wherein i told my dad my two ideas, moving to ca in the summer, and not going to school. both of which he said were the dumbest idea's he'd ever heard come out of my mouth. so basically he shot that entire idea down before i could get most of it out..but that i sort of expected.

the second and also equally depressing thing..my mom, and then dad, brought up the fact if i was to go out to be with jess for her surgery..where the hell would i stay? and then if i managed to stay someplace..how would i get to where i'm at, to where jess is at? so..looks like i'm not going anywhere anytime soon..and honestly i really, really, really wanted to be there, and to also just see her..sort of like my big-ass stress releaver, if i can see/be with her, all my problems just disappear and i can continue on with school and other stupid crap.

so..the days' been pretty much a wash since then..

scud.