also add the fact that i've made jack shit the past two weeks at work and am behind in what i should have saved for the move and i'm starting to freak out. i'm worried i'm not going to have anywhere near enough to what i need to have. but i know i just have to keep at it and work my ass off and i should be ok, it just sucks not ever knowing totally how much you're going to make in a shift and so you can't figure out your finances ahead of time.

the other day at work i was almost to the point of snapping and quitting. i haven't had one of those days in well, years. i think the last time was at logans, or maybe cooker, i can't exactly remember but i do know i started to think maybe i shouldn't be in the food service buisness anymore. sure i like waiting tables, i love [most of] the people i work with, and i like that work is never the same twice. but like i said before, i fucking hate not knowing how much money i'm going to make. especially when the range of what i could make goes from 20 bucks to 120. at least at logans it was pretty much a steady 90 to 130 range, so i would bank on 90 and if i made more, i'd pocket it for expendable income.

but with og i can't do that because things swing from each spectrum too much. basically the first 40 i make a week i put away as money for the trip, and then whatever else i make wednesday, friday, and saturday goes towards bill paying and whatnot. the only problem was that last week [since it was 4th of july weekend] was incredibly slow. i didn't work friday because of the 4th, and saturday i made an astounding total of 7 bucks.

so seriously, if you happen to be in northern va, come to the olive garden in manassas [yea yea i know, i hate it too] and give me your money, it's for a good cause!

scud