going to the mail and finding mail for yourself. especially when it's from the woman you love, sure she may talk about her roomate humping in it, but either way it's so awesome and to always have that possiblitiy there. i love reading them because i always hear her voice inside my head reading it back to me [kind of like in tv shows] and it's so comforting to sit there and be absorbed by what she's written.

memorial, and then labor day, can not simply come fast enough for me. though i thikn sometime inbetween then if i have the money i'm going to try to get her to come out here for the familly reunion because that's when you really get to see how our family is. plus it's always fun at the family reunions.

the week's over, and that means that soon i'm going ot have to go back to class, and damnit after this week i'm so not in the mood to attend anymore classes. i just want to sit around and do nothing, then maybe work every so often, cause you know i need money.

but she said something true in her letter "If I begin and end my days with you, you can't be that far away, can you?" and i think that's true. which would explain why on tuesday when she went out with her friends to some karaoke thing another friend was throwing i felt let down. not because she was going out, because i want her to live her own life, but because i was sad i wasn't gong to be able to end the night talking to her. her voice is like the ultimate relaxer for me, no matter what happens during the day i can talk to her for a few hours a night and i'm a lot more relaxed than i was before. she also seems to be able to let me have normal dreams, because the night we didn't talk i had probably the weirdest dream i've had in a uber-long time.

so whatit comes down to, is my daily requirement of sara-ness is about 2-3 hours of talking on the phone at least, or i will be grouchy and not get the proper amount of sleep.

scud