lasst year i was spending it with a girl who didn't really want to be with me. only difference is this year there isn't even a girl who's faking it, which almost makes me wonder what i'd rather prefer.

...this year, i think i'm spending it totally alone seeing bands i like much more than most others. i think this will be a good thing. no scratch that, i hope to fucking jebus this is a good thing, because really. i'm tired of unfun/not-good shit, i've paid my dues this time, it's time for something good damnit.

somehow i doubt that'll happen within tomorrow night.

scud