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"napoleon's battle plan" @ 11.08.02
it's weird how when you watch a movie late at night, or in my case a dvd of a tv-show [sports night] that at the end you always seem to have these epiphanies.

ones that, well like any ephiphany, seem to be the key to changing your entire life. but what's really odd is that they only happen after watching a movie, or dvd of a tv-show late at night. i think it's the late at night point that's most critical here, because you're brain is already in sleep mode and thus more likely to connect ideas in ways that don't normally happen in the daytime, when you're 'alert'. alert to say 'no that can't happen' or 'no i don't think so really.' something along those lines.

but yet after watching the entire season of sports night today [ok and most of yesterday] and finishing finally at 4am, when i have to be up in oh 6 hours, i had yet another epiphany.

having a girlfriend would be a good thing now, it would make me feel better. but even better than that, would be having someone who i could really talk to about whatever the hell is on my mind. because you know what, i don't have that. i don't have someone i can call up whenever and say 'hey you know what. i think i'm about to do a general life kirk-out here and i'd like to find a way to fix it. or at least avert it' i don't have anyone like that, and i wish i did.

sometimes, you know you think you have someone like that, but then you think about it some more, and realize that no; you don't infact have anyone like that, and it kind of blows. no it does blow.

but either way that is the epiphany i had today. also i really would like a girlfriend right now, because i would like someone who i could cuddle up with in a nice warm bed. that would be the end-all to my day. well that and being able to sit on the couch all afternoon and watch my sports night dvd's and talk with her about them, because then i'd know she had good taste in tv programming.

so if it wouldn't be too much to ask, i'd like a friend i could really talk to. and a girlfriend with whom i can cuddle with.

though i think in the end i'm going to take napoleons battle plan on the whole girlfriend thing.

1] Show up
2] Wait and see what happens.

and that is my big great and awesome napoleon-following plan that i am going to do. so who knows.

scud.

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