so i figured that'd be that and wouldn't hear from her too much more, since that's how it normally goes.

but no, instead she is confusing as hell. how is she confusing you ask? well she stayed after work to eat dinner in my area while i got ready to go home, then after she was done eating she helped me finish my section so we could do something.

this after she had previously said she didn't want to do anythig tonight because she had a volleyball game tomorrow early [which i would've been fine with].

so she stays half an hour, or an hour later, and we leave to come back here and watch 'chasing amy' in which well..i get mixed signals left and right. she does the thing that she'll move an arm, and somehow by her arm movement end up close to me on the couch. which i would normally take as a sign of wanting to do more then just sit on the couch and watch tv.

and she'd find some reason to touch me, be it poke me in the cheek, or try to tickle me. i mean hell we were even fighting over pillows to hit each other with.

it was only after she accidently hit me in the eye with the corner of a pillow, that she moved away from me. but then after she went to the bathroom and sat down, she was again right next to me.

there were moments when i would turn my head and she'd be inches, and i mean inches away from my face. oh lordy how i wanted to just lean forward and kiss her. but what she said earlier kept ringing in my head, then what actions she was doing would slap me across the face. so i was so confused it wasn't even funny.

arg i hate re-going over things in your head. because damnit i'm not sure if she's the kind of person who would like a guy more for just going ahead and kissing her, or not.

but..i dunno. i think after the conversations we had while going back to her car, i don't think i'm going to give-up trying to get this girl.

i don't know what it is, but i felt something while we were driving and talking, and it felt really good. and in all honesty it's something i haven't felt since probably jess and/or erin.

what i'd really like to do right now, is to call her up and just talk to her. when we pulled up to her car we were still in a deep discussion and i almost didn't want to stop the car because i wanted to just keep talking to her.

about the only thing i know at this moment, is i'm confused. but i think, maybe, it's the good sort of confusion. jesus did i wish girls would make sense..

scud