this week we've had two somewhat major fights, tho mainly it's been her getting mad at me for making one comment that she percieved as bitching, when it wasn't.

last night i got off work at maybe 10 or so? maybe even earlier. all i know i got out of there really friggin early. so i went out to her place to see her, even tho i knew she was eating dinner with a guy friend of her. so i called them up and agreed to meet'm at the place they were eating at. so i roll in pretty happy. i mean i got off work early, still managed to make some money, and was going to get to see my girl. as soon as i get there i see they're finishing off desert, which i was hoping against cause i was hungry. i mean i worked all evening and only had a quick bite to eat around 3. so i figured i could do without food and after kb asked me if i was hungry i was like "yea, but it's allright we can go" so we left.

so we leave to get a movie and watch it, now i knew this was going to be a trip because we [being myself and kb, have seen most of the newer half-decent movies at blockbuster] and i knew andrew had similar tastes to me which was the sort of art-house flicks that i don't think kb really likes. so we get there and can't find something to watch, kb picks up some movie and i said something along the lines of that i didn't like it. not having anything against her personally, just that i didn't/wouldn't like the movie. and i guess it irked her wrong or something because as we were leaving [after getting 'the pledge' and lemme say this, the movie is terrible, do not see it. ever.] and i asked for my blockbuster card back cause she had it [along with the movie] and she sort of give/sighs it to me. which is she handed it to me while having one of those deep sighs which means she'd prolly like to shove the card up some foreign orfice of mine.

so i get in my car and wait for her to pull out of her spot, and she almost flies into reverse and then forward, so i know she's mad. but i have no idea at what. so we watch the movie, and i swear during the whole thing nary a word is said to me during it. i tried to make random comments about how crappy the thing was and no one said anything, not even "shutup you tard that's not true" or something along those lines. so i'm like fuming, i'm thinking i should just fucking leave because it's pointless for me to be there since it's like i'm not. but i don't, mainly because i wanna know just what the hell happened to make her mad at me and act like i'm friggin invisible.

the movie ends and andrew finall goes and i'm standing at her door just sorta staring, trying to figure out how to put into words the feelig i'm getting from her. eventually i just asked "what the hell happened tonight?" and some 3 hours later i'm not sure if i know what happened. what i do know is that she took me saying i was 'tired' at On The Border [the place i met her and andrew at] as me bitching. but i wasn't. i mean i had just gotten off work, course i'm gonna be a little bit tired, but i'm not too tired to come out and see her, etc.

but one thing i sorta found out more about was that she's a person to not talk about what's boterhing her and just let it pass, whereas i'm the exact opposite. i mean i just can't stew in my own thoughts because i get about 20x more pissed off then i was of i just sit down and try to figure out what's bothering me.

i also found her friends percieve me as a little too shit i forget the word she used, maybe 'dandelion' was it? something about being too happy, i dunno. but basically not really who i am, so i found that sort of interesting.

i dunno, the night was weird, and i'm still somewhat irked that she got mad at me at the drop of a pin but doesn't do the same thing to her friends, or with me when it's just the two of us. so i guess time will tell if it happens again, i mean i'm not freaking out because we got in a fight, i mean it happens. so..anyways, time for some damned sleep. i only got a few hours last night.

scud.