i woke up at like 11 or so, i mean it's tuesday, i don't have work, and i don't have class until 6:30. so of course i can sleep in. i went thru my normal routines and checked various websites when i saw something on a videogame news site. said something about a plane running into the trade center. 'nah can't be real, prolly some pr hoax' i thought and went to a different place, and sure enough they said something too. that's when i woke up for real and went downstairs to see what the fuck was going on.

and none of it was pretty.

i sort of sat there in silence just watching, and watching. i flipped channels, everywhere was showing some news, everywhere but mtv [which has now changed] i thought that was sad afterall mtv is based in times-square.

i guess you could say i was in shock, i mean i saw that the pentagon had been hit, and that's maybe 15-20 miles from me? something really close like that, and i didn't think anything about it. i thought the trade center things were definetly not good, and that most of the scenes they showed from there after the thing fell down were out of a movie. but i still wasn't super 'upset' or 'worried' for myself or my safety. it wasn't until i saw that a plane went down in somerset pa did i freak to a certain extent. afterall somerset is where we normally get off the pa turnpike to go to my grandma's, so it's pretty damned close to her too.

after calling grandma and getting the ok that everyone there was ok i called up mom and dad at the beach. turns out they didn't know about it until some lady came up to them and told 'em. they worried about me and i told'm everything was allright here nothing was happening here.

i sat there and watch some more of the tv, but eventually it got to be too much, they kept saying the same stuff over and over.

but here's my thoughts on this. no it couldn't have been prevented, it could've been a helluva lot worse too, not by much, but it could have. having the us go out and try to "whup some ass" is the wrong thing, it will only provide the people who did this, with even more amunition to go and strike back. i feel for everyone in NYC, i have two friends who're going to school there and thankfully both are allright. well one i know is, the other i'm almost positive is as she's going to nyu and that's in upper manhatten, the wtc is in lower.

oh yea, and the time it really hit home how close i am to 'danger' was when i was talking to my father about stuff he said "don't go on rt.28, it's too dangerous" i balked and asked why "remember the national reconnisance building is right along there. it's a bit too hot to head that way" now the national reconnisance building is probably 3 miles from me, i've driven/skated by it numerous times and it is most assuredly 'hot' at the moment.

so now i get to sit here all by myself. no school [today, or tomorrow] no one really. i think i might just go into work tomorrow just to be around people..

scud.

"The third big war will begin when the big city is burning" -Nostradamus, 1654