it's brash, isn't throught through totally but you know what? i don't give a fuck because it might possibly make me the happiest i've ever been and thus allow me to actually fucking think for once and get a job and some decent money.

i'm not happy here, i haven't been for a long, long time. i was happy for a little bit not too long ago, but that wasn't here. it was somewhere else..so i'm going to go back to the place where i was happy..maybe for good even.