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After you've read that come back here.

Ok hi again. Now you may have read Jess' current entry. In which I 'hurt' her. But I don't know how/why I did. I think we are now to the point that craving wrote about. I didn't say anything mean to her, didn't call her names, none of that. And yet I did something terrible.

But in truth I didn't, and I'm tired...I didn't do anything wrong but will soon be told I did. Yes I said things that weren't "me" when I was drunk, but hello I was drunk for chrissake. Am I drunk often? Of course not, and yet..I was told that it sounded like I had better things to do than talk to Jess, and that it was some terrible thing to want to hang with some friends who I never see, than talk online to Jess which I do everyday and have been doing everyday for the past 7 months.

And now I think we're to the point where things are getting misinterpurted. Do I care about Jess? Of course. Did I do anything wrong? No. I had some fun, is there something so terrible about that? No, because I was safe about my 'fun'. I stayed at one place while drunk, didn't try to go driving, etc.

I'm tired and I want to see Jess, but I doubt that'll happen anytime soon. But whatever, not like that's new news [not being able to see Jess], so instead I'm going to go finish this essay.